There is a lot of drama going on right now. Alot of situations I’d really like to not be apart of. People make decisions that effect me, and I’m basically rag-dolling in the aftermath. And it just keeps coming. It just keeps happening. New situations blow up, and old situations evolve and everything is just expanding at a rate that I can’t keep up with. It’s getting to the point where people tell me what should be brilliant, exciting news and I’m finding it difficult to assimilate what they are telling me, what it means. It’s another something to deal with and I don’t have it in me to deal or understand right now.

I’m struggling.

I feel like I’m pulling out everything I have to keep the smile on my face. To keep going. I’m finding it hard to want to participate, to discuss or even be present.

It’s overwhelming.

It’s overwhelming when its your family. Your friends. Your life. I feel like right now what I want is to disconnect from everything. Take some time out, away, and give myself some room to deal. To think without these ridiculous emotions washing over me, and amping up everything that happens.

The problem with life though, is that it doesn’t have a pause button.